Self Destructive Behavior

As I sit here alone again
Facing all my impurities
I wonder why I let this hurt me
Is it my insecurites
I let this havok consume me
And confuse me
Again

And I catch myself starting to cry again
And my soul is aching again

I know she is oblivious to me
But it's better this way
I am the virus that would infect her
stealing her life away
I let this torment scar me
And bar me
Again

And I catch myself starting to cry again
And my heart is breaking again

And these feelings swallow me down again
But I can't make them just go away
And I feel myself starting to drown again
I try to make it through another day


And they all ask me why I won't
Tell you how I feel
But I cannot do this too you
Your dreams are much too real
And I would only break you
And forsake you
Again

And I feel myself starting to cry again
And I know I'm faking again

And these feelings swallow me down again
But I can't make them just go away
And I feel myself starting to drown again
I try to make it through another day

But I would only break you
And forsake you
Again